As the clean slate of 2014 lies there before me, I'm filled with eager anticipation of what I can achieve this year. I'm filled to overflowing with zest to just get going and DO! I want to make wonderful things happen this year!
But there is a problem..
3 problems actually...
They are called, my children.
Now don't get me wrong. I love them to pieces, and I wouldn't change having them for anything in this world. Or the next. They are my reason. (And sometimes my undoing... LOL)
I have reached the conclusion however, that summer school holidays and that urge to get the New Year off on the right foot, are incredibly and completely incompatible!
My urge to dive into MY year and follow MY aspirations, is regularly thwarted by, "I'm bored," "I'm hungry," "Mama! He won't leave me alone" and a myriad of minor child induced dramas. Spilled milk, lost items, endless laundry piles, first aid incidents, cartoon reruns, toy strewn living areas and aaarrrrggghhhh!!! I am frequently left feeling frustration and impatience instead of eager and excited.
On the flip side, while I'm struggling to find scraps of time to devote to MY year, or irritated that I can not, my children are vying for my attention or zoning out in front of the TV or xBox. They are missing out on precious holiday time with their mother.
We are missing out on precious holiday time TOGETHER!
So, I have declared that February is the new January!
What point is there to waste time struggling to make MY New Year great, just because the calendar says it is time to start fresh! Especially at the expense of making our school holidays less enjoyable!
Why can't February, when school returns, be the beginning of MY year?
When my babies go back to school I will blissfully submerge myself into my dreams and projects for 2014. I will let my imagination fly and fill the blank canvas of this year.
But until then, I am focusing on children. January needs to be about them. I'm easing up on myself as a woman with her own interests AND as a mother. I'm giving myself permission to start MY year when it is most convenient for ME! In so doing, I'm allowing myself space to enjoy my babies, work on ways that will set up our year together as a family and doing MY PRIMARY JOB of being a Mama.
In 13 days I will take my babies to school, I will get them settled for their year, and I will come home and dive into mine. For now though, its all about fun, school preparation and loving time with one another.
I feel so much lighter in my heart and head with this excision in place. The New Year pressure is lifted.
Start where you are and do what's right for you. A calendar and social perception should not dictate how things should happen. You're allowed to bend the rules and make them fit to you.